cally_09

Todays been alright so far.
ive eaten nothing at all and its 11:30
i havea softball game after school so i wont even get any oppourtunity to eat until about 6pm
and then i will have some iceburg lettuce(neg. calories) with a dijon dressing i made(with only 5 calories)
so my total intake for today should be 5 calories plus the 5 calories in gum ive chewed.
IM FEELING EXTREMELY OPTOMISTIC.
im just havng such a good day, nothing can bring me down...except a binge but thats NOT going to happen. 
NO WAY! 

Xx
Think Thin.
love love love

 Today has been okay, but i dont  feel in control at all.

So heres what i ate:
breakfast-NOTHING!
lunch-a mini chocolate. and 4 pieces of smartfood...agggh =[
I have softball practice at 3-6 so that should burn some calories i would assume, any estimations on how much ill burn with that??

and wheni get home, ill be forced to eat soo...salad?!
sounds good to  me.

I took some laa last night and they didnt kick in at allll!
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i dont know whats wrong, maybe i need to up the dosage.
i looked in the mirror for 30 minutes this morning and realized how much i hatttteeee like full on hate my body.
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i want thinn. i want perfection!
Xx
think thin

 i was doing fairly okay for a while.  Then I  weighed myself last night and i weighed a whole fucking 120lbs.  
=(
i seriously hateeeeeee being this fat.  We had gym class today & one of the guys told me i had fat thighs. =(

i wanna be skinnnny. i wanna be perfect adn pretty!

think thin.
xx
love,
Cally

im on day one of my liquid fast and im feeling okay, kind of bloated..eurghhh
im wearing shorts which feels good, because today someone told me that i really have lost alot of weight, he said it in a good way which made me happpppy but it also made me wanna lose more since people are seeing my fatass jiggly thighs in shorts now.
ughhh
xx
love you girls.
think thin.
think perfect!
 

 i was doing so gooood.
i lost 2 pounds, the same stupid 2 that come and go..
and i was feeling reallly thin and today i ate a subway(shitload of cals) and a mocha frozen coffe
im so depressed.
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i CANT eat tomorow.
and im seeing this guy i like on sunday so no food til sunday

 Things have been going so horribaly lately.  Softball started so im practising daily from 3-5:30.  And i dont eat breakfast,except today. DAMNIT!
i have an apple and 2 spoonfuls of oatmeal(low cal).    I dont eat lunch, and i have practice tongiht. =]

Mom is being all crazy about me eating, and im doing okay with keeping my cals kinda low, but its still not enough.  I weigh 120 and i just og tmy stupid period so im being extra fatty.  

I dont know what to do.. I cant seem to make mself purge and the lax pills arent working as well as they used to, the cramps have gotten soooo bad.

Well, I have class, be back later girls.

THink THin.
think perfection.
love yousssss

I FAILED!!!

I had been doing great, losing the weight then we went on vacation and i ate...and ate... and ate!
and now were home and ive been overeating like crazy.  I weighed myself at the gym at the hotel before we left and it said 124.3
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i feel like such a fatass too.
i have laxs at home and tonight i am taking 2.

i will keep taking them, and ill try not to eat tomorow or sunday, it should be easy because i will be out all weekend.

I wanna make my goal 300 or less cals this weekend.

i need thinspiration..major!
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THINK THIN. THINK PERFECTION.

 Its about 10:05 and I havent eating a single calorie today. =]
water, and my stomache is going insane. Ill have some tea( 5calories)

lost 4 pounds since monday. =]

oaky so i know i just posted but im posting again.
Im going to try the 2468 diet starting on monday.

so heres my plan:

monday:(200)
water all day(5 cals)
1 apple(55 calories)
salad for dinner(lettuce,cucumbers,tomato) (100 cals)
with balsamic vinagrette (5 cals)
plus gum through the day
TOTAL: 120 calories.

Tuesday:(400)
water all day(5 cals)
dinner
2 cup lettuce(12 calories)
1/2 small tomato(6 calories)
1/2 cucumber(15 calories)
5 olives(20 calories)
total:54 calories
snack
1 small bag pretzels(108 calories)
1 apple(55 calories)
TOTAL:227 calories

Wednesday:(600)
water all day(5 calories)
dinner
depends on whats for dinner.
snacks
1 small bag of pretzels(108 calories)
plus gum through the day
TOTAL:550 calories

Thursday:(800)

TBA

I lost 3 pounds!!!!!!!!

=]

I started off the day soo strong.  I drank 2 bottle of white tea(5calories) and a bottle of water(zero calories).  Then i came home and BAM! food everywhere, so i ate some vegitables like a couple pieces of tomato and a pretzel(15cals)

and a little piece of cake lik 1/4 of a piece so maybe (50 cals)
Althogether that is aboutt 100 calories including the 4 olives i ate.

salad for dinner and 1 soy meatball at 60 calories.
so altogether for the day i had under 600 calories =]

think thin.
theink control
think pretty.
think PERFECTION!

Today is good so far, but thena again it is only 8 am.  I went to school early even though I dont have any classes until 10:30. but, i am printing out some thinspiration and am drinking some white tea.(only 5 cals) =]

im staying after school too so i wont get home until about 4:15 so no chance to eat til then and ill have salad for dinner(not alot of calories)

as long as i dont end up binging i should stay way less than 400 cals today.
=]

wish me luck.

think thin.
think control. think pretty.
THINK PERFECTION!

hw:128
lw:80
cw:123
gw:100
gw2:90

today was a decent day. not great but not horrific.

I ate no breakfast, no lunch,(had some water and 2 pieces of gum)
dnner came and mom was on ED patrol.  I ate some salad with vinegar.  Nothing too fattening.

I printed some thinsporation and put it in my scarpbook of pretties.
I had softball for 1 1/2 hours andran a bit, did some little workouts at home as well.  

Tomorow will be no breakfast(water through the day) no lunch.  
and dinner will be salad unless mom forces me to eat more. =[

I also started taking cinnamon pills, they break down your sugar in your body to make me lose weiight.  
i [urged a tiny bit, but i hate it soooo much, its really hard to make myself purge, cuz i dont gag easily.

think thin. think control.
think pretty. THNK PERFECTION!

hw:128
lw:80
cw:123
gw:90

Okay..
i know i just posted but i had to end early because stupid people were sitting near me and i was worried that they would look over my shoulder.  After reading some of the other girls posts on the boards, i realize that i am like the fatest one on there. friggen 125 and only 5'1".  Heifer much?!
YESSS
i need to get down.  I strugled with my ED in 7th and 8th grade so my mother is really watchful of my eating habits now.  I was to get down to 95, thats the lowest i can physically be.  I could prolly be lower but thats how low it was in 8th grade.

CW:125
IDEAL: 90lbs baby!


think thin.
think control.
think pretty.
Think Perfection!

-Cally

Its like everyone in life judges me.

Whether its my parents abut college, my friends about my personality,
...or other people in general about my appearnance.
I have to wear the right clothes, be skinny enough(which by the way is physically impossible).  Everytime I look in the mirror I see this disgusting body, its no wonder why i dont have a boyfriend.  If i were a guy i would even take a second lookmat t this nast flab of a person.  The scale says 125, but i feel like i weigh a million ugly, nasty pounds.

Think thin.
think control.
think pretty.
think perfection. 

GW: 95lbs

So today i get to go into school late so i wont eat breakfast.
Ill drink water through the day. with some flavoring aso thats like 5 calories.

 theres a cake i made and itbut if i eat one piece i HAVE to go running this afternoon after softball to burn off the calories and that shouldnt be a problem.

I am going to struggle through these first few days but after that things will get easier.
the hunger pangs are the worst pat but it will be alright,
I CAN DO IT.

think thin.
think control.
think pretty.
think perfection!


W: 125
GW1:115
GW2:105
GW3:100

I feel so fat.
like the food i ate just threw some nasty celulite on my ass and legs.
my friends say i have nice legs.HA
yeah nice if your into jiggle.

things are just such a mess lately.
i miss justin so much, and id do anything to have him back..

 

I feel so fat.
like the food i ate just threw some nasty celulite on my ass and legs.
my friends say i have nice legs.HA
yeah nice if your into jiggle.

things are just such a mess lately.
i miss justin so much, and id do anything to have him back..